a box of kleenex

Winter break is what every college student looks forward to. That month long break that is pure freedom from all the stress the long fall semester brought. I would like to apologize to my few readers for my long abscenses. As soon as I got home I got the flu. My mom told me that when you finally have a chance to relax that puts you at most risk for getting sick. I had no clue! Today is my third day couch ridden. I am sitting on my fouton curled up in my warm leopard print blanket watching Breakfast at Tiffany's. I am completely content. I cannot wait to be 100% back to normal so I can spend my break watching TV in good health! Mom is leaving me so it looks like another lonely sick day for me. Well today won't be a total waste. I think I am going to look up some easy knitting instructions and learn how to make a scarf. I think I might even makes some pasta as well.

I hope you all have lovely days. Until next time.

Self Care.

This semester I have learned ho important self care is. I don't mean brushing your teeth and showering. I mean obviously! But when I say self care I mean the things that balance you (the things that keep you sain.) I haven't had time to clean my room, or do pottery, or exercise, and even eat normal. It has all caught up to me. My energy is low and I do not want to share the little energy I have with anoybody. So this is me fixing my problem. I am learning to say no, and I am making plans with my self to do the things I truly need. Yesterday I had 2 hours to clean and just read magazines. I felt refreshed! Today I have time to pottery for as long as I want! I am going to go into the studio and just work as long as I want! No distractions. It is so important to take of yourself. I am glad I am learning this early!

FALL SWAP

So I have not posted forever! I guess that is because how stinking busy I have become. More about that later. This post is completely about Fall Swap!!!!!




I am super excited!

A Christians Ramble

I am going to Barnes & Nobles today. I am so excited because to me a bookstores is a place filled with possibilities that are waiting for you to find them. I get so excited looking at everything. I take my time, order a coffee, and then gather as many books that I can hold. I then sit and try to learn something new, or figure out the secret of life. It may seem silly but there is something magical about a bookstore. I watched The Book of Eli last night. If you haven't seen it I urge you too. I thoroughly enjoyed it. It made me think though. In the movie the people of the near future can't read and some have not even seen a book. "The book" was the priceless treasure that held the key to everything. I think that we don't take this book as seriously as we should. Because what if there was only one Bible left. I would be able to quote a few scriptures, but then what? There are so many Bibles laying around we just take advantage of it. I mean I would love to know the Bible from front to back, but then that scares me. Knowing the whole Bible means knowing all right and wrong.

-Now if you are reading this and you do not have the same religious views I am not trying to debate anything I am just stating my own concerns.

Knowing that right and wrong puts a lot on me to follow all of that. I would try as best as I can, but then God knows I would not be able to follow word by word. Back to the point this movie gave me incentive to treasure my Bible. You may think well you are a christian shouldn't you treasure your Bible anyway, or what a hypocrite. Well it is just a struggle. I do not read my Bible everyday like I should. Honestly it is hard for me to concentrate when I read the Bible. It is not easy, and I know I am not the only one out there. However, I do use what I know of the Bible everyday in my life to keep myself on track. I guess that is the gist of it. This movie really made me think, and I need to take my christian life more seriously, and follow what I know. Barnes & Noble is waiting.

Thanks for listening dear friends. We will chat again soon.

20 before 20.

I got this idea from my friend over at 2Slicks Good Times. She did a 30 before 30, and I figured why not take a year and do a 20 before 20! So I only have one year to get all this done. I will update you guys when I cross something off my list!

1. Sell a piece of my pottery

2. Finish learning to knit

3. Bake a loaf of bread

4. Get all A's one semester (at least)

5. Go on a road trip to nowhere

6. Karaoke

7. Attempt to be a vegetarian

8. Score a rugby try (goal)

9. Leave the country

10. Grow and keep a plant

11. Run a 5k

12. Learn how to french braid

13. Catch a fish, and eat it

14. Learn a new language

15. Climb on the library roof at my school

16. Drink eggnog

17. Learn more about my parents past (separate and together)

18. Listen to jazz music

19. Become a regular at The Spot (diner downtown at school)

20. Start doing yoga

So here goes nothing!

eating grapes.

So I went to the dentist yesterday. I a.have a cavity, but it is ok because my dentist is a very attractive 30 yr. old.

I am eating green grapes at this very moment. However, I am sure when you are reading this I will no longer be eating grapes.

I think I am going to call sick out of work today. It isn't really work though just my intership. I feel pretty cruddy. I have a sore throat and an awful headache, and the work I have to do is outside. I don't know if you have stepped foot out the door yet but it is about 120 degrees out. While I am inside bundled up in a hoodie.

I go on vacation with my mom next Tuesday. I am so ready for some good times! I am planning an all girl 1st cousin sleepover. There are 13 of us!

Well Iam going to go back to watching Phineas and Ferb. Talk to you again soon.

Burdens of the heart.

I have a strange feeling in my heart. It kind of hurts, and makes me want to cry.

I am ready to go back to school.

First I will be going on a trip to Michigan with my momma. Very exciting. My up north family is way too fun! I can't wait, and there is where I will learn how to make jam! Yumm!

I will talk to you soon.

a haircut.

To start things off I got a new haircut! It's on of those things I always do spontaneously. The best way for me to describe my new do is: The haircut chicks in movies get when they get really pissed of and want to go kick some ones butt. For example Jennifer Lopez in Enough. I love it!

So I am sitting in my favorite room in the house: the front porch. I am sitting in a wicker chair with my feet propped up on my brothers guitar case sipping my coffee out of my favorite mug that I saved from being trashed. It is a great mug. I truly believe that this mug was made for me. Here is the story:

At the ceramic studio at school there was this old rusty looking teal mug. It is made out of coils and has a weird shape. The mug sat on the shelf alone. For the whole year I looked at the mug and even went to hold it to see if it fit into my hands. Well this mug is not perfectly round. But it fits perfectly into my hands. The mug fits into my grip. Then there is a perfect little spout to put your mouth at. The handle is small, but the way I hold it is PERFECT for that handle. I finally realized I needed that mug. So I went to my professor, who noticed that I was yearning for this mug, and he said take it! So I reglazed it to fill up the sad little holes, and I was praying it would hold liquid. It did. Now I drink coffee out of my favorite mug every morning so happy that I found it.

Today I am going to this great festival called Artscape. It is a blast. A huge music festival and art festival on the streets of Baltimore. I am excited to go and see the fellow artists and hope to find some treasures.

Hold on a second I need to refill my empty mug.

Today i look for new glasses!

So I read a blog this morning about our hearts. It made me think about my heart. About the hopes and dreams and the secrets of my heart. What I don't get is that your heart holds many of those secrets from you yourself. Which makes it very difficult to know who you are. I finally feel like I am starting to know me the real me. Well of course I don't know who I am fully. I am 19 years old and only been through about 1/3 of the tramatic experiences that I am sure I am going to go through in my life. But I really think I am starting to learn myself and the objections of my heart and the wants of my heart and the fears of my heart. The heart is a scary place. The truth is there.

Well that is it for today. I am going to get ready for my day. We will talk again soon.

sun kissed

I went to the beach on Sunday. It was the most beautiful day! My bestfriend, mother, and myself went to the beach and thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. Road trips, even short 3 hour ones, are the best! Windows down and music up. It was just the perfect day.

Ok. I have an issue. I cannot stand people texting when you are trying to hang out with them. It has really been bugging me lately. I am sorry but there is no reason to be texting during dinner when you are with other people. I will admit I have done this, texting in the company of others. However, I really try to restrain myself. It just feels like that person doesn't care to be with you. It is just an itch I will never be able to scratch.

So I saw Despicable Me on my birthday. Yes, my birthday was Friday! I love birthdays! Well this movie was wonderful, it was so funny. I couldn't stop laughing. There is so much going on you have to keep your eyes peeled to not miss anything.

I try for my driving license wednesday. Wish me luck.

Well that is all I got for right now. Talk to you all again soon.

hello beautiful day!

Ooh! The past two days have been down right gorgeous in Maryland. Today was a wonderful day. Why is that? Well I started my day butt early. The youth at church did some service on a farm that donates all it's food to the MD Food Bank. We picked zucchini and tied up tomatoes until 11. After we finished I wanted to still work. We did such a little amount compared to what these guys do every day. FO FREE! Yes. FO FREE! I asked Mr. Man in Charge if he loved it. He smiled and said "Oh yes!", I said "It must be your passion.!" We understood eachother for a second and all was good. Passions are something you love so much you will do for free. It's more than love though. Being passionate about something is something you will have to experience for yourself. It is quite a treat. My whole day was started on the right foot and I am just as happy as a clam. Why are clams so happy? Well I am not sure, but clam it is!

I hope you all have clam happy days as well! Chat to you again soon!

An outdoor theater.

Who ever thought of watching movies outside was genius! Last night I went with a friend and watched Avatar oustide at his pastors backyard. This was the same group from the church I visited a couple weeks back. It was wonderful! The lightening bugs are flying all over the place and everyone is just comfortable and having a great time. As long as you have bug spray you are in the clear! It was such a great night.

I am listening to my Counting Crows station on pandora. Crash Into Me by Dave Matthews Band is on now. Right before was A Long December by the Counting Crows...I am growing to love that song.

I am in love with these great t-shirts from Target. They are the v-necks with the pocket on the...boob area. Not to be innapropriate but that is where it is and that is exactly where the makers intended on it to be; perverts. WHAT THE HECK IS THAT POCKET FOR? Except for people to take notice in that area. You know what speaking of it my guy friend did tell me thats what happens. I love the shirts not the teensy pocket. Anyways I got about 5 of them all different colors.

If you do not have a pandora I insist that you go get one. It's a website where you can find your favorite band and make a station. IT"S THE BEST! I am really late on the pandora train.

Meet Virginia by Train just came on.

Well today was a sad day. U.S. lost to Ghana 2-1. Very depressing. It went into overtime. Man was I sick when I saw that last Ghana goal. Well now I need to pick a new team to root for in the World Cup. Who's yours? Soccer is a beautiful sport. They look like they are dancing with the ball. Lovely.

My brother is at a Phish concert as we speak. I hate to admit but I am a little jealous. But in his defense his friend bought him the ticket two months ago while I was still in school. Still it's a bummer. I asked for a t-shirt. So hopefully I will get one! If you don't know who they are check em out. I love them hope you do to.

Well that is all for tonight. We will chat again sometime soon.

P.S. Name by The Goo Goo Dolls is on now.

Well it might be the slowness of my summer, but I am starting to get excited to go back to school. My summer is lagging quite a bit. I need an adventure. Some kind of excitement or trip. I am going to Michigan next month! But I am starting to feel like I need more than that. Call me selfish. I SCREAM FOR ADVENTURE!

The World Cup has been the center of my attention. This Wednesday U.S. vs. Algeria. So come on U.S. we need this! My brother likes to wake me up for the early 9 a.m. games so I know that will be the case then.

Speaking of my brother. I have become very close with him. We hang out everyday, and I am eating it up. I never get to see him while at school and I know he has better things to do. He picks to hang out with me. He as easily become one of my best friends. It's as simple as that.

For dinner I had delicious chicken, hummus, and chick pea and bean wraps. So good.

My mom bought years worth of strawberries.

So I am in drives education. Yes, I jumped a little too late on the driving train. But here I go! Drives ed. is awful! I hate it so much. 3 hours. Monday thru Thursday. My teacher is this very goofy man. He has a story for everything, and always laughs at his own jokes. THe sad thing is nothing he says is funny. You just hear pity laughs around the room. Poor guy.

Well that is all tonight. I hope you all enjoyed your first official day of summer!

drip drop

Rain Rain please never go away! Flood us with your refreshing thoughts. And leave us longing for your next visit.

I thank God for the rain.

Check it!

Guys I found a new blog that I fell in love with right away! Here it is. Read and love!

Cool breeze.

Today is beautiful. So I am just checking in trying not to get sucked into the blogosphere. It's a cool breezy day. Perfect for a run, a dog walk, and maybe some painting.

Yesterday, besides the fun family funk we all deal with, was very inspiring. I created all day. I spent three hours on the pottery wheel! I tried two new forms. A box being one of them. I am so excited to see how it turned out. I also sat outside for about an hour painting with my watercolors! I am very amateur with watercolors, but it is so enchanting. The idea of watercolors puts a smile on my face. It's elegant and simple. I may be quite awful, but I love it regardless.

I visited a new church on Sunday. I loved it. It seemed to fit all my criteria, and the people! Oh the people. You know when you walk into a strange place but are simply calmed by the warmth of all people there. It was welcoming and the prescence of God was overwhelming! Needless to say I will be visiting again. However, to those biting your nails. I will never leave VERB.

Wanna know what my family ate for dinner last night? Grilled cheeses with macoroni and cheese on the side. I think we are cute.

So being home from college is a lot to get used to. Mom actually sent me to my room the other day. Then she realized how ridiculous it was and lifted the punishment. Too funny!

Is it bad that I don't care if my ceilning is painted? Who cares? Mom does. And watch out get on her bad side and she will send you to your room. Never gets old haha.

Well it's time to enjoy this beautiful day!
Goodbye dear friends.

Diane keaton you are inspiration.

To all people who have experienced divorce in their lives. This goes to you.

Tonight my mother and father talked about what is going to happen now that I am 19. How much will my father pay? Will he pay? Insurance? And then the nonsense comments mom throws in. The comments that don't need to be said. Or in her words the comments she thinks Diane Keaton would say. My oldest brother and I watch this ping pong match and can't help but chuckle at the comedy in it all. A good friend and I were talking the other night about how complex we make the simple things. Well this is one of those times. My mother has been hurt, yes. However, she takes the complexity of her emotions and throws them in front of the simplicity of buisness. If this life we live in were a Diane Keaton movie let me tell you I would be a happy girl. It would be simple, yet over the top, and always classy. Well somewhat. But it's not. This divorced world we have found ourselves in is it. This is what we have to work with. Who I am is the product of a "broken" family. Everything I have become I give thanks to my parents. Sure I have some broken parts, but all together I enjoy who I have become. A divorce is not a dead end. Divorce is a maze, ofcourse you are going to find yourself stuck at points but if you work hard you will make it out! Frustration is just a barrier I have to jump. I will jump it. I will make it.

Well that is it. Call it a rant. Call it vent. Call it a pretty darn satisfying read.
You can't deny it I got a blog that you want to read again tomorrow. Problem is I'm to lazy to write tomorrow. Maybe next week.

So there it is, I will meet you right back here whenever. Talk to you soon.

Polka Until You drop.

Happy Saturday friends! The weather is a little iffy but it should be a happy one. My mom is putting on an event tonight for Relay for Life. We are having it at a polka bar. Yes a polka bar. My family is Ukranian and it is in our blood to get down a polka. My mom has fallin in love with it so why not fall with her! It should be a blast.

This morning my momma and I are planning to hit a yardsale or two, and hopefully find some gold.

So I have an internship. It started as a deal for free space to throw pottery in. The deal was two hours of work and as much free time to throw on the potters wheel as I want! Well the man I work with has been working on pottery for fory years! AMAZING! Well he has turned this whole thing upside down into an internship. He said that he wanted to hook me up with his assistant to learn different glazing technniques and things of that nature. I love it. I am passionate about it. I can't wait to have my own wheel and kiln and throw in the comfort of my own home. Just to safe a few thousand now to get that dream out of the way.

So I hate painting. There is still so much to paint in my room. We have kind of paused the project out of pur laziness. Oh well hopefully I will get the energy to just kill it.

Speaking of energy I have been lacking. I need to excercise and get healthy. It's just so easy to lose focus when you see the couch and tv. Oh and especially when a friend calls with something more exciting then running around in circles. But I have to start training for rugby. Gotta get in shape to beat up some girls.

I have a new love....FRUIT SMOOTHIES! Yumm. So easy too. My first one was banananana, strawberries, and oranges. You add the fruit, ice, and orange juice and WALA! Delicious. The possibilities are endless!

Well off for a hectic crazy Saturday! Talk to you all again real soon.

Rainy Day inspiration

Here it is that rainy day I needed to catch up on my blogging.

I primed my room last night. Took my about 2 and a half hours but I am proud to say I did by myself (for the most part). Now my room is a depressing shade of gray. Soon to be a tan color.

Being home from college is so weird. Where's my freedom? Oh yea, it only exists in Tennessee. Oh well. I will get used to all this.

So I need a job. A JOB! I want to nanny or something. But where can I find those rich families that need their nanny all the time for a billion bucks an hour? Nahh I'm going to be babysitting for some friends, and I am so grateful for that!

Here's 3 things I have marked on my calender that I am SUPER pumped for:

1. May 28th...Yankee Candle Super Sale! Candles are like 1/2 off!

2. June 30th...New Moon in theaters! YES!

3. July 11th...Free Slurpees at 7 Eleven.

Those are them the most exciting parts of my life. Feel free to share them with me!

Wow my life has turned into a snore fest. I need something fun to happen. I want adventure... So far that idea has fallen flat! I'll figure something out. I always do.

Well that's for now guys. I am gonna go turn my life into something to write about.

I'll meet ya back on the couch later.

cat cuddles & rainy puddles

My cat is snuggling up to me. The blinds are open. All the lights in the house are off. I am at peace. Rainy days. There is nothing like a rainy day at home. It's the best.

I'm getting ready to make some lunch. Including rice, chicken, and avacados. What it will be? I have no idea. But I am hungry.

Tonight I have a date with my dear friend! I cannot wait to see laugh with her!

I'm gonna light my black cherry candle.

So I have decided. I like her. But because she is dating my brother I will not become close with her. I will keep my guard up. But I will not be cold. I will be friendly. But the fence is up. We will call her Broadway for now on.

Baths! The best thing about being home. Taking baths. I don't get to take baths at college. I am so excited for hours and hours worth of baths!

I need to learn how to use the coffee maker in my house.

Broadway beat me in a game of Rummy. I think I am bitter for this.

Well I need to start my lunch! I can't ignore my stomach any longer. Let's chat again soon.

As I sit on my couch and eat my oatmeal and drink my tea I couldn't be more content. My good friend is about to come over to go get some lunch from our favorite lunch place. Hot wings and subs. Yes, please!

I proclaim this summer the DIY Summer! I have so many projects this summer that I have to do as cheap as possible. I am so excited to get stated on my room. So far I have the color brown in mind. But that is about it. Where to go from there. I don't know.

I met my brothers girlfriend last night. He really wants me to be friends with her. But my brothers are also fully aware of the fact that I am one tough person to please when it comes to girls for them. So did I like her? Was game night a success? Well I am not sure. She is a lot like me. I have a hard time liking people like me. But my brother really likes her. She really tried to be nice to me. Well I am undecided. I am going to need a couple more game nights. I know I sound a little tough but I am. I will keep y'all updated.

Well that's about it for right now. Meet y'all later on my couch again sometime soon.

The sweet land of mary

I am finally home! 3 months of summer. The drive home was 10 hours long and my couch never felt so comfy. I am gonna finish watching That's 70 Show and eat some chips and guacamole then go to bed. Church tomorrow with all my Verbies. I forgot how different it was to be home. It's not as simple as college. You have one person to worry about their. Yourself. Now it's you and your family. Oye vay. Well here it goes. Summer meets Summerly once and again.

See ya soon. Literally! Come back soon!

Well isn't this a morning.

So I wake up for my 8 a.m. exam at 8:30. Get there to fins out my exam is at 10:15. SURPRISE! I am not sitting at work trying to make up the hours I will miss due to the exam. The real kicker. I was supposed to work at 10 and my boss was going to get Chik-fil-A for the office because of me. Please turn around day. I am sitting here half asleep, with dirty clothes on, and I can't force myself to smile due to my tiredness. Thank goodness I will be home in a week. Breaks always seem to come at perfet times.

Problem: I am hungry! SO HUNGRY. I could eat a llama hungry and maybe a stingray for dessert. Ok I am being a little dramatic. I will survive...maybe.

Come back soon.

Project Summer.

So I have decided that my summer is going to be jammed pack with projects! Maybe reading a book or two. Any good suggestions? I am learning how to make jam! I want to dive into the piano and learn how to be able to just play without thinking about it. I am going to be training with my dear brother and father all summer for rugby next year. And lastly I will be searching for the most boring cookbook of all time. My mother and I have decided that we want to give a cookbook without pictures a chance. We are those people who grab a cookbook open it and immediately close it when we do not see vibrant colorful pictures of the delicious meals. We will be cooking from the book and taking pictures of our cooking adventures putting our photos in the book, and giving life to the dead dead cookbook! So that's exciting!

I need to study for my psychology exam tomorrow. Another 8 a.m. final. Who actually thinks that people can think a 8 in the morning. I know my brain doesn't actually wake up until about 1:46 p.m. somewhere around there. Oh well I will just endure it.

The weather feels like Puerto Rico outside. AKA...Muggy and sooooo humid! BLEH!

1 week until I a home!

I am craving strawberries! Chocolate strawberries. Ooooh yea!

Well that's all fo me today. I hope you enjoyed this walk through my mind. Come again soon.

I LOVE GETTING A's!

So guys I got a 91 on my History exam! A 91! I seriously stayed up till 4 a.m. and shoved my brain full of information on Vietnam and Japan. Yes people the Cold War! It was interesting but I was so nervous to know this test was holding the fate of my pass or fail. OH BOY! I am full of joy!

This is all I can think about and my mother just called because I called her 300 times to tell her!

So I am out BYE!

Food makes me wanna study.

I am sitting here eating a sandwhich. This is my attempt at studying. Tomorrow I take a stab at my History Exam. So here I go. I have all the necessities for a good study session. Apple, peanut butter, sandwich, sweet tea, and water. if I get hungry I have hamburgers and mexican in my fridge. Party Time.

See ya in my mind next time.

Just To Confirm.

The cat in the ceiling is evil! Well the kitten is anyways. The kitten who we named McGruder (a glaze name) was hissing at me! That little booger wouldn't take my water! My friend Lucas said that they are as good as dead. HOW AWFUL! I truly have tried to save the Raku and baby McGruder but I don't know where to go from here. Satan's cats are hiding in my ceiling. Sounds like a band name or a book, I will get on that right away.

OK. The blue hole is this great place where you can go cliff jumping, rope swinging, and just chill. It is not an owned place just a hidden spot next to some railroad tracks. It is so fun! The jump is 40 ft. It's a blast.

And yes once I see scowling I know I am home in good ole Baltimore.

Hopefully I have an interesting day and come write about it later tonight. However, my day has just started and there is noting more to say than I hate staying up untip 3 and then waking up at 9. Never again! SIKE!

Thankn you for this sweet little walk through my mind. Let's do it again soon!

Upside Down.

Jack Johnson you will forever be my chill music. My music that lightens my heart and makes me want to be on the beach. The music that is expressive and simple. Thank You.

This semester is almost done. It is exam week. And ladies and gentlemen this means that I have officially finished my first year of college....almost. Just wait until these 2 exams are done and I will have 1 year under my belt! I am ready for a summer home! I am excited to see those familiar faces that love you no matter what. I am ready to see scowling instead of smiling. And I cannot wait to smell that sweet aroma of Baltimore....smell that pollution! And more than ever I am ready for an adventure. I am thinking road trip!

The weather has been amazing. I think that calls for some cliff jumping at the blue hole!

So I am not mentioning names but lets call him Q. So I met Q last week and this guys is all the check marks on my list. NO LIE! A guy who surfs, throws pottery, and travels! Well I think he is just a nice guy. My room mate said that he may just be an example of what my standards should look like! I think she is right. I have wasted time with too many Logan's (aka buttholes). I still can't help but swoon when I see him! MMMM! It's just a harmless crush.

So in the ceramic studio there is a cat in the ceiling. A ceiling cat. I named him Raku (a type of clay) So I have plans on saving him. I will tell y'all how that goes later.

Well I love y'all thank you for visiting my mind come again soon.

Hot Tea.

You know thos days where you just wake up with ease. Everything seems good in the world. Nothing can get you down. The rain may be falling outside but a smile stays on your face. I'm having one of those days. My heart feels light. The sky is grey preparing us for the rain that is about to visit us but I am so warm and happy. Despite the fact that I hate drinking out of styrofoam cups, I am sipping some wonderful Earl Grey tea and I am comforted. I can only hope that all of your days are just as nice. Have a lovely afternoon.

Thank you for this short but sweet visit to my mind; come again!

butterflies, oreos & art journals

My room never seems to stay clean. I don't know what it is. I know it's not me. Maybe there are little angry elves who come out at night that like to try my clothes on and throw them on the floor and not in the shopping cart where they belong. It's a conspiracy.

So today I learned that having a crush on someone is not the only way to get butterflies. Today I did something I have felt God putting on my heart. I needed to tell a certain person...lets call him Heat....that I have been praying for him and that I have felt a strong connection between us(not romantically). But as soon as I saw Heat I got an extreme case of butterflies, and as I was telling him I had butterflies, and those same butterflies stuck with me till the end. It was a great feeling. God is a funny guy and I know he was giving me those butterflies to show that I was doing what he asked.

Today I remembered the magic of peanut butter and oreos. It was DELICIOUS.

I made my very own journal! I guess I should do some tutorial or something but that is not me. It was so easy kinda. But now I have my own journal to create in. I think everyone should have one or at least look through someone elses. They are very inspiring things. I love them!

There is nothing more satisfying then seeing your boss get dunked at a dunking booth!

Well I am off to a ball game! It will be a fun night.

Thank you for visiting my mind I hope you come again soon!

heart melting

This semi attractive guy (nothing special) just walked into my work. He has been here before. Everytime he opens his mouth my heart melts. Due to his beautiful accent! He must be from Liverpool or somewhere like that. OH! I love it! He then turns into a very attractive guy that I don't want to stop talking. Everything goes a little foggy when he talks and I have to snap back to reality.

Moral of the story: Don't judge a guys looks until he opens his mouth to talk.
And you shouldn't make blogging a priority at work even when your'e busy!

battle wounds & the president

So rugby practice was brutal for me yesterday. I stayed on the ground for about 60% of the 2 hour practice. I couldn't get a break. I also jammed my finger, and now I am impatiently waiting for the clinic to open so they can pop it out. OOOH I'm nervous. But I got some cool bruises from practice that I am proud to show off.

Today was the famous "Ask the President" day in chapel today. The day where you can ask the president of my college anything your heart desires and he will answer. It is fantastic. It's like Christmas meets Valentines meets New Years meets Ground Hogs day. Something along those lines!

The rain won't stop.

Today is TOMS Go a Day Without Shoes Day. They have a facebook page so it's official.

So instead of popping my finger out they just put it in a gaudy finger brace. I could stop traffic in this thing...NO LIE!

Well the rains stopping and I should actually do some work!

Come back to my mind soon.

itchy eyes, a busy week & rugby

My allergies have been killing me. It has been horrible. You can't wear contacts because the pollen gets stuck to them and torments your poor little eyes. Sneezing has became my new favorite hobby along with blowing my nose.

If my allergies don't kill me than this unbearably crazy week will. I think all of my professors get together and see how hard they can make my week. 2 exams, 1 HUGE pottery project, and 1 paper. In this said paper I have to read 2 books and analyze them. And the Pottery project I have to pick an artist and make 4 pieces using inspiration from their work. Yes, I love ceramics but this couldn't have come at a worse time. OH WELL. I need to learn how to manage my time. It seems impossible at this very moment.

Besides this chaotic week I have an awesome week to look forward to. I am spending time with a friend all weekend! I am teaching 4th & 5th graders how to use the pottery wheel! I am gonna hike! And lastly I am doing a walk-a-thon for the invisible children in Africa! It will be a good weekend after all.

So my rugby team is off to Florida. I took a short week break from the team, had a meeting with the coach and BAM I'm back. Yep we made to FINALS!!!!!!! It's going to be super fun even if my view is from the bench. I warm that bench with pride!

I have been craving crab cakes. YUM.

Lunch in 30 minutes, until then I will jam out to The Beatles and cram for exam #1.

Have an amazing day, and thank you for this walk through my mind. Come again soon.

stress.

Today has been very stressful and it is not even done yet. I was running everywhere this morning for errands for my boss and we were extremely busy at work dealing with frantic graduating seniors. No time to eat. No time to breathe.

Well class time. I promise next visit will be longer. No time now though. I'M LATE I'M LATE I'M LATE!

sunshine, sour patch kids & an obnoxious room mate

Today and yesterday were beautiful. I got a chance to lay out and do some extreme studying. I am pumped for the next history exam!

I am extremely tired. That should have been in the college pamphlet. No matter what you do you are always tired. ALWAYS! I could have an amazing night of sleep and still be tired later in the day. FRUSTRATING!

I had some wonderful sour patch kids today. They were by far the best ones I have ever had. Im salivating just thinking about them.

My room mate is being very obnoxious. She has the music up very loudly and I asked her to turn it down...she did. Then secretly she turns it back up again. ANNOYING!

There is rice calling my name. But it is 11 o' clock and that is a little too late for a snack full of carbs. Darn.

Well it's bed time. Thanks for visiting my mind. Come back soon.

This commercial.

This commercial cracks me up every time. The sarcasm is spectacular.

laundry, japan & paychecks

I got my paycheck today in the mail! And luckily get another one next week! Mommas bringing home the bacon!

So I have already realized in the past that I have horrible luck with simple tasks. This including buttoning buttons, zipping zippers, and buckling belts. Where did this struggle come from? I have no idea? But it was very apparent today when I spent over 2 minutes fumbling with my 3-hole jacket. Yes it took me over 2 minutes to button 3 buttons. It was chaos.

My English teacher is a complete is a complete Japanese culture junkie. Right now he is having us watch this geek turns chic and gets the girl movie. Very cheesy, corny, and completely a guilty pleasure. Each one of us students hates to say it but we love this movie.

I finish ALL of my laundry yesterday! ALL OF IT! Clean clothes are the best. Clean underwear even better!

Starving.

Today was the first day of classes after spring break. It went surprisingly smooth and well.

But I am going to go do the unthinkable and dive into my history textbook. The 48 I got on the last exam is very painful. Now to try to save my poor helpless GPA.

Come back soon.

Pancakes, Netherlands & Cheeseburgers

Yesterday was such an amazing day. I had so much fun painting in the park. it was so peaceful and happy. I found out I am not the only one that came back early from break. A friend and I made delicious pancakes last night filled with fresh strawberries, blueberries, ad chocolate chips! I love chocolate. They were delicious.

When I came back to my dorm there was this very cute red-headed girl sitting in the lounge. I decided to join her and found out she was from the Netherlands and we had a great conversation and watched The Devil Wears Prada. It was a blast.

This morning my roommate surprisingly showed up at 8 am in the morning and woke me up. We stayed up and chatted and then went to one of my favorite resturants in town. It is this very cheap and cute little cafe called The Spot. The food was delicious and we got free frostys!

My room is so messy, but laundry is a pain in the butt when you have to pay a buck to wash and a buck to dry.

I can't french braid and this fact frustrates me.

Money is scary. Being an adult and having to worry about money is super stressful. I hate having to watch what I spend so that I don't go over the amount in my account, it scares the crap out of me.

I love splatter paints. A friend and I did these wonderful splatter paintings on big canvas and I have it in my dorm room. It is so bright and fun. Who said coloring outside the lines is a bad thing. To me it's exciting and daring!

--note to self I need a baseball cap.

Well It has been fun but I'm gonna have to kick you out now. Come back to my mind soon!

Sweet Sounds of Buble.

Michael Buble has stolen my heart. His song Haven't Met You Yet is the story of my life, and every time I listen I can't help but smile. Thanks goes out to my dear friend who introduced him to me. We listen and smile together, it's the best.

It took me forever to get my stubborn contacts in this morning.

Florida was a blast. I tend to get easily annoyed at the end of trips, and so that is what happened. I was ready to leave when we left. But the Florida sun was bright and warm (most of the time). And my friend's aunt stuffed us full with blueberry pancakes, grilled steak and pineapples, berry smoothies, and omelets. Vacation = an extra 3 lbs. and a happy belly.

Arby's for lunch our idea of "healthy"!

So today is gorgeous weather. I can't wait to go outside and soak up more sun. I am going to get a nice blanket lay out in the park and paint with my watercolors. (I may or not have "borrowed" them from the art room.)

Since we left Florida early the dorm is quiet and peaceful. It's actually very nice. I didn't have to bury my head under the pillow last night to shield the light that my roommates refuse to turn off or have to monitor the sound of my music.

Well it's off to lunch with a friend and the park time.
Thanks for the visit through my mind. Be sure to visit again soon.

Feet, Florida and Buttholes.

For the first time ever a friend and I decided to try throwing on the potters wheel with my feet. If you know me you know I have learned to love the potters wheel this year. Well throwing with your feet is a whole new experience and let me tell you I am pretty darn proud of my "candy dish" I got out of it. I was so happy and had a blast.

Tomorrow is the first day of Spring Break. Two of my girls and I have decided that we must have an awesome time therefore we must go to Florida. A whole week in Florida I cannot wait! Tennessee just has plain psycho weather always so bipolar. But I am excited for a change in scenery!

College work has been killing me lately. 3 exams right in a row. REALLY? Did the teachers just have a meeting to plan on how to ruin my week? Well there ya go that's how ya do it. I have been so swamped. But on the bright side my ceramics have been turning out so good!

Butthole...being the boy that stopped talking to me for no reason. Someone explain males to me cus if women are confusing guys are way more complex. They are simply complex. I mean hey if he wanted to end things that's great be a big boy and confront me, I'm an understanding person. But nope lets take the childish route and play the quiet game. Fine with me don't expect me to be ready to jump back with you when you are ready to grow up.

NEW BAND!!! Well new to me. This couple is amazing and I found myself at a concert of theirs on accident. I surprisingly fell in love with the two they were so sweet and real. Jenny & Tyler. Please check them out!!! I hope you enjoy them as much as I have been.

So I am super unprepared for a test and I am barely even packed for Florida. It's 1 A.M. I better get to work.

Thanks for visiting my mind, it's been a great trip. Come back soon.

wet snow & watercolors

today it snowed. i am just ready for a tennessee spring. but all i can do is savor the little teases we get, of 50-60 degree days, randomly. the snow was slushy ans wet and my rain boots put up a good fight and won. i was dry all day.

last night i went to art club for the first time. i loved it. we did watercolor paintings. let me tell you there is nothing like the freedom of a paintbrush and paint with a white clean slate. anything is possible. all your emotions and thoughts just smoothly make their ways on the page and turn into something words could never do justice. last night inspired me to buy a little watercolor pad and paints to keep in my room to do whenever i need to let it all out.

tomorrow we need to pick our new roomates. its a dreadful time.

i am going to do a wal-mart run with my roomate to pick up some necessities.
so thank you for visiting my mind. come back soon.

sunburn & mario

last night i got back from a rugby weekend. we had two games in one weekend and i am proud to say we are undefeated. i am sunburnt on my face which i didnt realize till last night.

we have an N64 in our dorm room where none of us get anything done. it is fantastic to play mario with your roomates. we all drop everything and just have fun.

i miss real food. the food you eat in college is everything but.

i am sipping on some earl grey tea. delicious. alot lighter than my usual black coffee.

postsecret. i have talked about this before but let me tell you guys i love it.
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
follow their blog, see that others have secrets too, make a postcard of your own and sent it in. ITS GREAT!

i have the hiccups at this very moment. they are great. plus the fact that i have very goofy hiccups, they make me smile and in quiet places very uncomfortable.

now i have to read a very long german story by Tolstoy for english. it has to be done by 2 and i am the slowest reader of all time.

OH MY! the tallest man ever just walked into my work. and as i was talking to stilts i couldn't help but be nervous he was looking down my shirt which i am not even showing any cleavage so no worries there...still nervous. i was sitting down and i had to totally tilt my head all the way up to look at him i thought standing would be better. oh wait i am only 5'4" not any better. sit back down. what a good time. gotta love those basketball players.

thanks for visiting my mind come back soon.

Chocolate on Chocolate.

Brownies. That's the one word anyone has to say to make a girls heart leap out of her chest. Last night I made brownies with extra added chocolate syrup with a good friend. Lets just say the batter was half gone before it reached the pan.

I have decided that I want to live like the barried life. It is this wonderful show on mtv. These four guys go around the US doing all the things they want to do before they die. That is spectacular to me. What a great idea.

I went to bed early last night, and woke up early this morning. The catch...no breakfast.

You know what one of my favorite views is? The view out my work window. If you look up there are these trees. I love trees that have no leaves on them. You can see the branches intertwine and twist. And then there is that bright blue sky behind it. It's beautiful.

I think I want sushi for dinner.

I am not sure if I talked about this yesterday, and if I did I am sorry to bring it up again. But my dorm room smells like crap. Not actual crap. The evil smells will not go away. First it was my roomates fridge where she lets all the fruit she ever buys die. And then there is me and my rugby stuff. (If you have any idea to get rid of that smell that would be great!) And now a pipe bursted from our sink and has soaked the rug creating yet another great smell. Good thing I have been sick and not been able to smell it.

Well that is all for today. Thank you for visiting my mind. You are now free to move around the cabin and safely exit.

I get knocked down...But I get up again.

Tennessee weather does not seize to amaze me. One day will be pouring down rain the next sunshine out the wazoo! It has been a nice treat to be able to walk outside without a jacket on. I love it! Now let me tell you about my new hobby. RUGBY. I know shocking. It's a mean tough sport, and if your a girl who plays rugby you are most likely a lesbian. Well that last part is false. I play on a christian rugby team and all of us are straight! It is a blast. What other sport can you tackle and stiff arm people without getting called out for it. So there is a new guy in my life. Yes. His name is Logan and he is a cutie. He is all the way in MD and I am in TN but hey lets try the long distance thing. Right now I dont quite understand why people do this to themselves. But we will see how it turns out. Today I had chik-fil-a for lunch but I really wanted a turkey sandwhich. My room mate promised to get me sushi last night but then made an excuse why she didn't. Being in college I thought life would get easier, well I fooled myself. But let me tell ya it had been an adventure.

Thanks for visiting my mind today, I look forward to having you visit again.

PS. I TRIED CHANGING THE COLOR OF MY FONT BUT I CANT! WHATS UP WITH THAT?

SNOW. SNOW. AND MORE SNOW.

Being in Tenn. you would think that I would be affected by the crazy snow fall up North. But I am. I can't get home, this whole week has been insane and I am going crazy. Weather is cold here, and I have been having constant headaches. On the bright side I am on the dorm wars team for my dorm! Dorm Wars is a fight to death! All the dorms on campus compete and I am so excited! MMM I just had chocolate covered cherries, my FAVORITE! So we have a Nintendo 64 in my dorm, problem is one of the wires doesnt work. So me and my RA are gonna go on a hunt to find one! This is all I have right now. But I will be back. Thanks for visiting my mind.