deprived of lunch.

mom forgot to give me my lunch money this morning. and i remembered right when i got on the train and the doors were closing. so im sitting here starving. although i am unusually happy! prom this saturday and school is done monday followed by exams. which im pretty sure i have to take most of them...i kinda bombed a test in chem today...WHOOPS! thats gonna destroy my 95ish. i keep thinking people are talking about me. its weird. i could use some mac and cheese and orios! yumm im hungry. so tonight is church. i always am thinking i am gonna skip...tonight i might. dont be mad. i just am not in the mood to be around everyone. i wanna do homework at home and eat. its weird though cus even though this is the last week of school for seniors teachers are piling on what the can. GROWLLLL. that was my stomach. i feel beautiful today. and slightly dehydrated. i felt the urge to steal this boys hoodie in theory 3 today...i liked it...it was red...i didnt steal it. this kid next to me keeps twirling his hair. this class period has gona by soo fast like the rest of my day. the librarian is yelling at people to be quiet...NOT HAPPENING. i want to learn how to paint...really good. i just wanna paint all day. im gonna go fill out some scholarship crap. maybeee... well im out.

thanks for visiting my mind. come back soon!

quit playing games with my heart...SIKE

i am very confused. why am i the one who is always playing the games...im not even playing games im just being myself. so i had my senior recital monday...2...COUNT EM 2...cellphones went on during my performance. it was horrible somehow i magically kept my composure finished my piece smiled and walked off stage, following by a bunch of wirty dords that came out of my mouth. so i guess i am back on phase one with the cussing thing but i was so angry. dont you love excuses. well at least i finished with the bang...or a rrring i should say. i think i am getting a sore on my lip..it hurts. i am so hungry i could eat a grizzly bear or a mountain lion. yes that was a twilight reference. i want chipotle yummmmm! so i went on the girls beach weekend with a bunch of chicks from church. it was wonderful and i think everyone can agree that we all felt really good about ourselves after that. so im gonna go find something to eat...or someone to punch in the face. my last day of schoolis the 18th so that gives me 8 more days of my highschool career left! oye vay ist mir.

ok well im out. thanks for visiting my mind please come back soon!

Get your hands off my bassoon!

summerly feels the need to cuddle. everyoneand their mother is either sick...or in mexico. its so weird the swine flu comes alopng and everyone runs to mexico. i know of like 5 people in mexico for "VACATION". so we had a concert for kids today and we had to go in the audience and play with them and show them our instruments. so this kid comes up and grabs my bassoon while it was still in my hands. i grabbed it back and was like sorry kid you cant hold it. he HUMFed** and then stomped away. yes okay like im gonna let you hold my $5,000 bassoon. ha cute.. ok so tonight i am going to see the seniors preduction of mid summer night dream! so excited. but life isnt perfect and im missing the dodgeball tourney..sorry liv! BEACH WEEKEND! theres only like 7 of us....but it will be fun. i went driving last night. and the niight before. brit i actually might be ready to ride ur car soon! i wasnt too bad. ofcourse dad made it worse by yelling when i was about to intersect too early. im a begginer im not supposed to know everything. but i told him calmly that him yelling actually made my fear worse and my nervousness. all day i have had these butterflies in my stomach.....WHY? i dont even understand it!

well thats all i got. please remember to wash your hands religiously. and come back to visit soon!

i dont wanna be a hypocrite...cus their not hip with it.

ok. so yesterday our conductor got fired. he wasnt reaching the "teaching" standards. yes in his deffense he was very good and our orchestra wasnt sounding half bad. (im sitting at the crappy computer again with the broken space bar.) and now a group of students are walking around school with these signs as a protest against him. protesting is fine you have a right. whatever. the catch is half of these kids were bad mouthing him LAST week. they all talk about how he was a jerk and how much they miss erin (ex-conductor who left cus she had a better job opportunity.) and its making me so angry. dr.ford(head of music) came to us and told us and everyone was like what? why? thats dumb. blah blah blah blah blah. these kids dont make sense. they are never happy. and you know what else kids that arent even in the music department are doing it too. COME ON PEOPLE! if your an actor please stay in your department and dont try to fight for something you dont know CRAP about! oye vay!

ok well thanks for visitng my mind today hope you enjoyed the complimentary rant.

2 step..

ok guys theres a song that i just listened to and i am now in love with. only because its so danceable! just wait once you listen you wont be able to not dance! the song is: Fancy Footwork. by: Chromeo. so go listen to it. but finish reading my blog first. today at lunch i was sitting with my friends listening to this song dancing and all of a sudden i notice a group of boys look over at me....not attractive boys (well 1 is) BUT THATS NOT THE POINT....one pointed me out to everyone else and one through his chair on the ground like he was shocked...ABOUT WHAT? i was confused and just waved (they waved back) and continued dancing. i mean now im super curious. i dont know if im gonna be at church tonight im debating. i kinda just need a night to just sleep. these boys are always late to class due to playing chess LAME! i had the best french fries yesterday! i made a heart out of a gum wrapper. i want to go swimming. im wearing tye dye! im craving chipotle...but no money darn it! so i have this horrible curse...overthinking every situation. i have to stop cus it ruins everything! well im gonna go do something..

GOODBYE YALL!! and i want to say THANKSSSS FOR VISITING MY DEAR MIND!

now you can go listen to that song!

if walls could talk..i would listen.

seriously i was just thinking...besides god walls know everything! seriously i wish i could here what a wall has to say. they know secrets from years and years back. the library is ridiculously crowded. not so happy about that. guys i am being really mature...and i hate it. theres this guy and he really likes me and yes i feel the same but nothing can happen because of college. i have seriously been keeping with that. ITS SO HARD. i hate being mature. immaturity is beauty! i would really love to hear what the walls in prince charmings castle had to say. i bet they knew the best gossip. even though gossip is a sin, i still enjoy it. BUT I REALLY DONT TRY TO SIN. listen here..as im growing up im realizing ow hard it is not to sin. i mean seriously sinning is seemingly wonderful stuff...i guess thats what makes it a sin. why is it harder to not sin when you are an adult. i bet any wall can answer that question. if walls spoke do you think they would have different accents depending on where they are built. and they would know different knowledge too. WONDERFUL! what a great thought to get lost in. i have been having very strange dreams. i had chipotle for lunch...i love leftover chipotle! ITS ALWAYS BEST THE SECOND DAY! yumm. i have been a lil curious because someone is supposed to talk to me about something and and some people like to keep those kinds of things to themselves...GRR.


well thats all i have to say...not really but this will do.

LOVE YALL!!!!

tendonitis and sweet talkers.

i would just like to say how much i like boys. i really just enjoy them. i have a certain friend and he just takes care of me like no other friend i have. and then there is another guy who feels the need to talk to me everyday...i feel the same. its just nice. i know some guys are little turds but i have really been finding the good ones. i mean present not past(for those of you who are thinking other wise.) my tendonitis is acting so bad im miserable. im gonna go home rub bengay all over my arm and watch some tv! sounds wonderful! OOOO PROM DRESS TONIGHT FOR SURE~

ok well im out schools over. library is empty.

PEACE!